One of the biggest problems I've carried with me since I was a child is an unwillingness to embarrass myself. Better not to answer than to risk being laughed at. Better to give up than to make mistakes along the way. It's an impossible thing to expect progress and improvement without false steps, or the finished thing not matching what was in my head, but there we are. Over the years I've found it absurdly hard to overcome.
After deleting an hour of horrendous takes I finally decided to stick with the last one, regardless of mistakes, resulting in an entirely awful video of me playing "If I Had You" on the ukulele. I'm taking lessons (via group Zoom calls) with Sage Harrington, and intellectually I know that I need to share my problems and progress in order to get any help… but it's so hard to do.
Just uploaded the video to the group's WhatsApp discussion. I shall now be burning all of my ukuleles and escaping to the Peruvian hills to become a hermit.
After deleting an hour of horrendous takes I finally decided to stick with the last one, regardless of mistakes, resulting in an entirely awful video of me playing "If I Had You" on the ukulele. I'm taking lessons (via group Zoom calls) with Sage Harrington, and intellectually I know that I need to share my problems and progress in order to get any help… but it's so hard to do.
Just uploaded the video to the group's WhatsApp discussion. I shall now be burning all of my ukuleles and escaping to the Peruvian hills to become a hermit.